ok, i'm having a ton of school problems. everything is definitely not like it was before, and to make things even more screwed up is that is there really nothing to stand for? a lot has changed in a single year.... what screwed up your life?

lately, i've been standing for my friend Lionwarrior324 (btw, i want you guys to give him a hand so that he can stand in his pride again). wishing doesn't do any good, but his friends and i give him hope to stand with. i want there to be a special light in his eyes.

school will never be the same anymore... with half of my closest friends graduated, somehow in the process my most magnetic friend has broken up with her bf... since summer, she has never been back at the school and has been working her arse off to pay for bills, most of which isn't even her own... i need to talk to her once more to make sure she's okay. i've been love-blind the past couple of years that i didn't notice that the one truly for me in this retched school was right in front of me and i missed that chance. sometimes, as well, i lose myself, not even knowing who i am and if i am important. always wondering "how can i help this person if i can't even help myself? if i can't even relate to their own problems, but they can to mine? what was i thinking?" O.o and most recently, i've grown the question: "what if everything you knew was a complete lie and a waste of time? would you hate things and kill yourself?"
my answer will come out: "no. because in a lie, there's nothing to gain and nothing to lose. your death will not mean anything, and neither will your life. in this so-called "life" i stand nonexistant and i will stand up to that way"

in my world, that is my closest motto.....
however, i need no pity for i'm not depressed or desperate... i'm just wondering if you think my "life" isn't as screwed as i think, what is your life like? what twisted it in torment to you?